1x05 Gray Matter
First Aired: Feb. 24, 2008 on AMC
Summary: Walter is offered a new job while attending a birthday party for a successful former science colleague. Jesse finds himself unsuccessful at finding a legitimate job and ends up back to cooking up meth, and an inferior product at that. Skyler tries to get Walter into chemotherapy by…
Main Characters in this Episode
Walter H. White: Look, we all in this room, we love each other. We want what's best for each other and I know that, I am very thankful for that. What I want... what I want, what I need... is a choice
Skyler White: What does that mean?
Walter H. White: [with tears in his eyes, very emotional]... sometimes I feel like I never actually make, any of my own... choices. I mean, my entire life it just seems I never... had a real say about any of it. This last one, cancer, all I have left is how I choose to approach this.
Skyler White: [calmly] Well make the right choice, you are not the only one it affects. What about your son? Don't you want to see your daughter grow up? I just...
Walter H. White: [with tears in his eyes, very emotional] Of course I do, Skyler. You've read the statistics sheet, these doctors talking about surviving, one year, two years, like it's the only thing that matters. But what good is it to survive if I'm too sick to work, to enjoy a meal, to make love. For what time I have left, I want to live in my own house, I want to sleep in my own bed. I don't want to choke down 40 or 50 pills every single day, and lose my hair, lie around, too tired to get up, and so nauseated that I can't even move my head. You cleaning up after me. Me... me some um... some dead man, some artifically alive, just marking time... No. And that's how you would remember me. That's the worst part. So... that is my thought process, Skyler... I'm sorry, it's just I choose not to do it.
- Goof (revealing mistake): The black Fender Stratocaster given to Elliot by a friend at his party is a Fender Stratocaster Mexican version. Eric Clapton only played Fender Stratocaster American. When he picks up the guitar, the headstock is from a Mexican made Stratocaster (subtle differences, i.e., the missing Fender logo up the very top).
- Walter White is said to be the "white" in "Gray Matter", the name of former partner Elliott Schwartz's company. Schwartz is German for "black", and white combined with black makes gray; hence the name of the company.